autumnbreathing's Xanga

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 14:43:39 GMT

I just got a new Xanga... because I felt like changing my username. I like reinventing...

http://xanga.com/transitplan add me back please!

Bye Bye Beautiful

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 17:25:48 GMT

So I have this big poignant thing I'm about to say and I have to find a way to say it...

I'm pretty sure my life has changed. Actually, I know it has. I'm suddenly very happy and satisfied with my life due to some recent events and realizations. About 5 years ago I made promises to myself in order to "preserve my innocence" ...it sounds so incredibly lame out loud, but I made those promises and I kept them. I'm very proud of myself for that. I'm 18 and that means a lot to me. It means that I've passed a point in my life reserved for innocence and now I have that point in time to look back on and know that I had a childhood, and an adolescence that didn't get fucked up by growing up too fast. I can tuck the last 18 years away and be at peace with myself, while at the same time moving on and starting over as an adult. I can make decisions for myself without having to answer to anyone, and I'm the only person who's responsible for the consequences.

I finally feel like I'm my own person, and that I can mess up and it's okay. I can do the things I want to do regardless of what anyone else thinks. I'm done being afraid and it's liberating, I'm not afraid of anything anymore... it's an amazing feeling.

I guess I'm a woman now, :P I just grew up a whole bunch. Self-reflection is fun!

Friday, April 07, 2006

Fri, 07 Apr 2006 06:44:10 GMT

Best. Motherfucking night. Ever.

Monday, March 27, 2006

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 00:08:53 GMT

WEEE I'm going to the MXPX show in Medford tomorrow night! My brother wanted to go, so I'm making him take me too. Anyone else gonna be there? Hit me up! We'll gather at the show :P Call my cell phone at Vibes and be like "DUUUUDE I'M OVER HEERE!"

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 00:56:10 GMT

I'm in desperate need of friends on my IM. For the love of Jesus, please add me so we can chat. I serioulsy love to IM. I promise I probably won't be boring. And I have like, 0 friends on there.

AIM: streetlightdrive YIM: signalfade

♥

SPEEEAAAAKKK

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 16:26:55 GMT

I'm seriously recording that on my voice mail.

I saw RENT last night (I swear to God I'm so behind the times) and now I'm in love with it. I'd probably feel less so if I'd seen it in broadway first, but it's all good. I heard the movie was amazing and then Rachel made me watch it.

LOVE LOVE LOVE

P.S. Mark is my absolute favorite â™¥

P.P.S.Â Xanga Stalkers:Â ADD ME OR COMMENT FOR CHRIST'S SAKE! LET'S BE FRIENDS!

Can I Trust My Printer's Ink To Express The Things I Think

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 02:01:20 GMT

Officially my new favorite song of all time. ^^^

New layout. YAYUH. I need to change the font though.

Went to Ashland today to see the Oregon Shakespeare Festival perform "The Diary of Anne Frank". It was really good, except for the incessant phone ringing and the stupid immature fuckers who kept laughing as Mr. Ducell was praying for his family not to die, and during a bunch of other inappropriate parts. I was so embarrassed even though I had no connection to them whatsoever.

There was this bum guy wandering around with a sign about Jesus being our Lord and stuff like that, and I don't like having religion shoved at me, so I decided to fuck with him and say "HAIL SATAN!"

I don't mean to offend anyone with that, by the way. I'm just not a big fan of religion. Perhaps I'll go into this more sometime...

Stutter Something Profound

Sat, 25 Feb 2006 02:21:28 GMT

We had an awesome fire drill at school today. *coughsarcasmcough*

They told us it was a fire drill...I mean the alarm rang, but they got us all outside so they could send the drug dog around. When I came back to Virtual Enterprise about an hour later, my bag was on the ground (well, everyone's was) but I was VERY relieved. Because at first I didn't see it on top of my computer so I was like "Oh shit." but the fact that it was still in the room and not confiscated was a big relief.

Andrea and Allison get to see Mae and it's not faaaaiiiirr! And Motion City Soundtrack's going to be in mothafuckin PORTLAND on sunday, but I can't go :(

But hopefully in April I'll get to see Fall Out Boy, Hawthorne Heights, and All-American Rejects. YAAAYUUUHHH. I'm not as excited about AAR, but FOB and HH are for LUUVERSZZ.

Oh how I love this song :D

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 19:55:21 GMT

Chester Bennington is a sexy beast. *nods*

Check out my new bangidy bang bangs:
http://signalfade.buzznet.com

Me and Mandy are friends again. It was weird, I didn't think we'd ever make up, but we did... I had to be the one to say "Okay, let's be done with this, I'm sorry" but at least we're friends again.

I love my new Mae layout :D Mae is my new obsession.

Put Your Ear To The Speaker, Choose Love Or Sympathy, But Never Both

Fri, 17 Feb 2006 02:15:03 GMT

Things are good now... Mandy and I are friends again, miraculously. I didn't think that would happen. She threatened to kick my ass but it obviously didn't happen or else we wouldn't have made up...

I think picking a fist fight with someone for talking shit is a very stupid freshman thing to do. I don't mean to offend anyone with that.

I have cute bangs now... I may post pictures soon :)

I hope everyone's doing okay...

I LOVE NEW FRIENDS! :D